so…im back..and i’m getting bullied again

Posted in Uncategorized on April 29, 2018 by whenimborediblog


So it’s been ages since I wrote on here, I’ve graduated, entered the world of work, became a target of workplace bullying once before, quit that job, believing I could definitely do better. Took the first job I got, as I thought I could build up my skills and get out, the company seemed nice and like it would provide a good environment for me to obtain some training.

The colleague training me had been promoted prematurely, and was incompetent, and slowly grew to despise me. He took this out on me through glaring and staring at me throughout the day, and then he proceeded to fill my manager ears with bum licking and shit. He was very manipulative, and has been using other people to do his dirty work for him. Smart guy, he won’t get far in life though, as God is watching (yes I believe in God). Anyway, whatever. It’s all bullshit, it just seems as though life has been repeating itself in many ways recently and I can’t figure out why. What I do know is, that I need to get out of this place, and frankly I don’t think I care about having a job anymore.

I’m sick of all this career bullshit, all kids are fed when they are younger, work for a top company, you get blaa blaa blaa. Work for a small company it’s relaxed and chill and casual and nice. I think the chilled out environments are a lot more dangerous, because they are the ones where the lines are slightly blurred and lines are crossed.

Sometimes, you can go a step too far, and when that happens. I guess that happens. Anyway, I’m going to quit my job. I did it before, and I’ll do it again. I really cannot be bothered with the hassle anymore. I’ve literally had enough. Not taking anymore bullshit anymore, and I’m not going to work for a company which allows this shit, they’re going down the drain anyway.


Uni stuff

Posted in Uncategorized on December 24, 2017 by whenimborediblog

So If you’ve been reading my blog post for ages, you know that I didn’t want to go to uni because of the cost of the loan and the interest and that. So I wavered and fell into the pits of societal pressure, and ended up going to University and actually getting a bachelors degree.


NOW…A QUESTION OR SOMETHING I WROT IN MY POST WAS…will I ever get a good job with a good salary if I don’t go to university? – the answer to this is yes YES AND YES. I wish someone had told me this at the time, and I hadn’t wasted my time and I feel like I would have had a lot more energy and motivation at the time but at the same time I would’ve felt so lost. I remember feeling so lost. But hey, we plan and God Plans, and through going to University I experienced a lot and grew as a person.


Also, to my old school physics teachers sorry I didn’t get you a retirement gift….girl was struggling ya know, didn’t have  a part time job back then, things were hard ya know. (sorry, you were still a good physics teacher anyway). Wow, man I feel like I had way more character as a kid, now that I’ve grown up and my circumstances have changed slightly, although I am working and have contributed to some household stuff, most of my money gets spent on me. Which isn’t a bad thing cause I guess you have to put yourself first, but I still feel helpless in terms of helping my parents, I can just about help myself. I guess I still have a long way to go.

So….I’m back

Posted in Uncategorized on December 24, 2017 by whenimborediblog

after ages and ages, I think I wrote a few posts, but I just didn’t post them. I haven’t really been journalling or writing anywhere recently. It’s almost the end of 2017 and I have so much to get done, but at the same time I’m grateful for actually having things to do and work towards.

Anyway, so I guess I’ll tell you guys (aka my readers, if there are still any out there) I found a job, woo woo, and I’ve lasted there for longer than two months. My manager isn’t as much of an a hole as the last one, he seems to have a bit of an emotional problem at times, but he is definitely 1000% better than the old one. I think it could be me, I’m just a bit annoying, and he just has to deal with it I guess, well I am trying my best to chill and not constantly annoy them with questions which aren’t as necessary.

Work is okay, but I’ve come into the problem of people, when socialising, I’ve found myself kind of part of a group of people, which always eat lunch together. I need to get away though, cause while they are lovely people I have seen some red flag traits in some of them. From past experience, I have decided it’s best to just limit exposure, while still being civil. I think this is a common thing I encounter I can’t really handle people. I usually feel VERY drained after talking and sitting with them, or just extremely bored when I sit with them and I feel like I don’t have much to say. I also feel like it’s affecting me outside of work because I worry about it and don’t really know how to get away without offending anyone and making enemies. I’ve decided to try and use the time to go to the gym as I feel a bit stressed recently.

Anyway besides that I’ve also recently realised, I’m actually ready to get married, should the right person come along. Which is also MAD?! Cause I’ve always been terrified of the idea of being married, but now it actually seems like a nice thing to do and have in ones life, a companion in life. Would be real nice, and I know what I want to look for in a person. Okay, I feel like I’m just showing off now, sorry if you’re still confused and you might be thinking oh shup you silly little girl you know nothing. I’m sorrrrry man!! I really am mostly just writing this for myself. I don’t mean to come across as a show off, or a rub salt in your wounds! Don’t worry you will also know what you want in a person too! LOL to the person reading this who actually doesn’t care. But yeah, I know what I want in the person I’d like to marry, and yeah man! Exciting isn’t it. I guess not really cause no one around me seems to like me, and I guess I don’t really like someone either. So we shall have to wait and see what happens. Isn’t is great that I still have this blog, I think this blog is coming up to 6 years right? Or has it been 5? I feel like so much has happened in the past year, It’s actually crazy. At the same time in a way it’s nice, cause even though I haven’t accomplished much, since a lot of stuff has happened and I have changed as a person I feel like I’ve accomplished something.

Recently though, I feel like my motivation has just dropped, my drive, my motivation, something isn’t quite right, I can feel it. I’m just going to try and pray about it. I believe in God btw, just in case you didn’t know. Praying about stuff and trusting God is key in life. So key. It was nice writing this and catching up with people’s who read my blog. Sorry if you didn’t gain much from this article.


I feel like I should try and post stuff which is more beneficial to read, like something which can help provide value to people…at the same time I barely write as it is. I will try and incorporate life lessons, maybe, in my posts. Have a nice week everyone! and I hope everything is going AMAZZZING FOR YOU! And if not, don’t worry Time heals all. It really does. Time heals alll people!

Ready to get back up

Posted in Uncategorized on July 13, 2017 by whenimborediblog

It’s weird, I’ve gotten through a lot, but recently, I’ve been thinking like wow, i’ve gotten through a lot of crap, and it’s really not good. You shouldn’t really identify yourself as someone who’s going through so much because that kind of puts us in a victim mentality and it gives us an excuse to not do as well as we would.



(sorry if this is mean, it’s really just a reminder for myself)

I quit my job

Posted in Uncategorized on June 30, 2017 by whenimborediblog

Hi All,

So I lasted about 2 months in the previous job role I had, and now I have quit. KAPEET. DONE. OFFICIALLY OVER. Now i’m just looking at life like, what next?

Anyway, so what have I got to say about my old job? HMMMMM….


IT WAS OKAY TBH, the job was aite, data and that, however my manager was a real a hole. For some reason he was out to get me fired from day 1 (or so I think he was). When a mistake happened which was my fault at the time (but just as much his fault for not double checking my work as a new starter), he completely threw me under the bus and said that if I make “one more mistake I’m out”.

So, I went home had a rant, went to my second job had another rant, came home and handed in my notice. To be honest the feedback I got from other people who had worked in the professional environment was that what my manager was doing was wrong. I didn’t think to stay to get rid of him, or to sort him out. I figured I’d just leave, the pay wasn’t that high to cause such a big ruckus tbh.


And now….what am I doing? I guess just living, finally started learning something I’ve always wanted to learn. Went to the gym, getting my life going ya know.

I don’t really write anymore blaaa blaaa blaa ablaaaaaaaa. Anyway, how can I provide you guys with some value?

TOP however many I feel to write RED FLAGS THE COMPANY AINT GOOD

  • not really collaborative, people constantly pushing work around onto other people
  • a lot of passive aggresiveness in the air/tension
  • people not willing to admit to their faults (Always looking to pin the blame on someone else)
  • questions not being answered/welcomed
  • a clear lack of communication between departments

Anyway, this was a scarring experience I’d say. I forgot how mean people were. Just reminded me of uni tbh. Well then at least that’s over and done with. I left with some ££ and experience, so I guess it wasn’t as bad. I’m going to try and apply to another job and hopefully I get it if not meeeh, I’ll apply for more. Okay, that’s it for now on the job front, I really need to get a life ya know. Life isn’t all about work. BLAA BLAA BLAA  IM TURNING INTO A BORING PERSON!! AHHH HELPPP!


So….the first proper job has arrived

Posted in Uncategorized on April 12, 2017 by whenimborediblog

After applying to…I don’t know how many applications and going to quite a few interviews, I finally got a job offer. In something I actually want to do, in a office that seems ultra chic and very cool, very urban and just great all round. I have a lot to learn but at the same time it was all a little overwhelming.

The day off getting the offer, I was left with a tension headache for a few days after, and I think that may have been due to the momentum of the job hunt coming to an abrupt halt. Anyway, it had me really thinking, wow, I better get my life together. Starting a job and all, I need to get more serious with my finances and my financial goals as well as with what I kind of want to do with my life alongside my job. Anything I want to try and do? I don’t know

I can’t believe that this day has actually come, well I haven’t started yet but wowza, I remember really wanting a job at 15 when I first got my NI card, and now I’m entering the job world as a full time employee. Granted the salary was lower than what I wanted especially since I am a so called fancy schmancy “graduate”. I don’t mind too much since I am starting at the bottom and while it is a LOT lower than a lot of the graduate schemes I’ve come across, it’s still quite the opportunity. Sorry if you feel like I’m just writing this post to brag, I kind of am quite private about my accomplishments in real life, and by that I mean in real life as a non-anonymous person.


I never really liked the whole OOOOO I got 11 A* and 7 A posts, I always found them a bit weird. I’m really only writing this kind of for myself, ahhahaha I’m a selfish sally. I guess this is also motivation for others as well. I feel like I’ve come along way, especially through the last couple of years, I totally feel like a different person. I hope it’s a good thing. I liked looking back on my old posts from earlier which is why I’m writing this one here. MEMREEEZZZ THANKS WORDPRESSS sSRSLY U R ZEE BEST <3.

Yea, I feel like I’ve learnt loads in these last few years. Anyway blurrggggghhhhhhhhh


I also watched this film called I think seventeen again, I clicked on it on youtube and it came up, and I watched it. It was great. I could totally relate even though I’m only 21 and the girl was 28. I’ll post the link here. It was a good movie, well I really liked it.


Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on March 5, 2017 by whenimborediblog

You know when you want to write, but you don’t know what to write, and you kind of don’t really wanna write whatever cause you don’t want to send garbage out into the internet. Yeah, that’s what I’ve been thinking for a while, and while it’s great putting out great posts all the time, full of magical information that isn’t a waste of your time to read, I’m gnna SOD it. So if at any point you get bored, feel free to leave this post and maybe come again for another, which, hopefully won’t be as boring, or rubbish.

To be honest, I kind of just made this blog for fun over the summer. As a child/young adult I frequently spent my summers online, reading, researching, watching korean dramas and the like. Anyway I haven’t written in what feels like ages, and I think it’s definitely therapeutic for me to do so. Also, I’m hoping to improve upon my english writing, since I’ve noticed I’m quite lacking in that department. ALSSOOOOO, It’s just a good way to kind of stay on track in life and whatnot, and it’s nice to look back and see what stuff I was thinking/writing about when I was younger.

So, my mindset recently has been a bad one which I need to change, and it’s really not good. I never used to think like ooo poor me, blaa blaa blaa. But recently, I’ve noticed it in the back of my mind, I’m blaming my circumstances or external things, which IS NOT GOOD AT ALL. I feel kind of sluggish, I need to take my self accountable for my circumstances regardless of what happens in my life and what not. Doesn’t matter where you come from and what you have, you have enough to succeed. Anyway, so I definitely need to work on my mindset and take more accountability for where I’m at today.

Furthermore; post uni life and my thoughts on it:

After Uni, I felt drained, physically and mentally, it took a while to feel normal again, I completed an Arabic course and started getting physically healthy, and it was great, it was a relief to be away from studying, yet somewhat still studying since, I’ve continued learning new things. I found something that I’m interested in and am now pursuing that as an income source. I’m still coming to grips with a daily routine and try to establish one for myself despite not being in full time employment.

Thing’s that I’ve struggled with; is job desperation, wanting a job so you choose to apply to any and everything (quite bad), finding my place in society, and life.

The thing is with me, Uni became a toxic place, well it became toxic for me, or I was just at a toxic point in my life. A lot of the people I had chosen to surround myself with were not good for me. I’m not necessarily saying they’re bad people, but I know that they’re personalities and mind did not click. Pairing that up with the disappointment I felt in myself for kind of just taking this route because I could instead of really thinking things through and giving myself the opportunity to explore other avenues. I wished I had given myself a year or two, rather than just following the crowd. However, now I’m glad I’ve gone through that experience because I’ve learnt a lot about myself and grown as an individual. People say pain is causes you to grow, it definitely does, well from my experience, as long as you have the right mindset in life it does cause you to grow. However, when your actually experiencing the pain, and going through it, it feels like absolute shit, but on the other side it’s great.

Anyway, one of the fundamental life lessons I’ve learnt through going to University is:

  • Trust your GUT instinct.

Only you know yourself well enough, and sometimes things don’t add up, a lot of the time your gut instinct is screaming out to you, throughout my University years my gut instinct kept on screaming out towards me and I kept on ignoring it, and I guess I didn’t make the best decisions. Looking back, I’ve learnt a life lesson, so now I make it a habit to listen to my gut.


Sometimes it takes a while to explain things, however your gut tells you straight away. It’s important to trust yourself and your instincts.


But yeah that’s my ramblings I guess, for now I want to finish up a course I’ve been completing in order to make myself more employable and work on my skills, so I can perform the job I’m setting out to do well. I’m also, applying to jobs, and trying to change my lifestyle for the better. Currently, I’m reading The Happiness Advantage, it’s non-fiction, so I hope I finish it, I’m also watching Introverted Boss a Korean drama, it’s okay. I want to wait and see how the plot plays out.

I’d love to take up a martial art or a sport, however I just feel like I’m not there yet. I think I should definitely sort out my financials first. Getting rid of that student debt, finding full time employment. I hope I find a fun job with cool people. That’s what I’m hoping for. Kind of exciting ahahahaha, I guess that’s what everyone kind of feels about their first job. Anyway, Hasta Luego! Seee ya later peeps. Have a nice day!!!!!!!!!!!! 😀