Hey Blogger Readers,
So anyway, Whats new with me? I guess I’m just on another adventure in life. Having finished my Physics degree. I am currently looking for employment. However I FEEL LOST, well less lost than before. What I’ve found myself doing for the past day and a bit is applying to things that I’m really not that interested in. Not at all.
I want to experience tech really. I started teaching myself some Java but besides that, I haven’t done much else. I feel to save up for a masters and then go back to university to study Computer Science but at the same time I’d rather work and pay off my student loan debt. I don’t know. Why am I applying for Consultancy jobs when I’m really not that interested in them? Do I want to climb down the rabbit hole of despair and misery and question if I like something or not again?
The thing is at University I actually enjoyed studying Physics but at the same time I was slightly bummed out because I was unsure if the decision was mine and not my parents or somebody else’s. I don’t know maybe its just a thing with me. I just feel better knowing that I whole heartedly chose this and wanted to do this. At the same time if your enjoying it why does it matter? I think it’s important to be in control of your own life. You should be the one making the decisions and calling the shots to an extent. But yeah, I did like learning Physics it was very fascinating. However now I look to employment so I can pay off my loan, save up for korea and develop as a human being.
I haven’t written in here in ages. I guess I should do more often. I don’t know why I’ve been delaying employment so much well I guess I do know. It’s because even though certain jobs are out there, they are not jobs that I want. I guess I only fully have one job that I want to do. So I should work towards that. I definitely need to find some temporary role for the timebeing, and work on the techy stuff part time I guess. Got to get some £££ flow, ya know what I’m saying.
It’s really important to stop and think and take the time to say to yourself. Hang on a minute do I really want to go there? Do I really want to enter the Finance Sector….errrr no. I mean I’ve probably said “I don’t want to go into the Finance sector.” So MANY times. Silly me. What else is new????????
Applied to some jobs.
Went to an interview and totally messed it up.
Began my Arabic Class so I can have some structured Arabic learning YYAAAY.
Didn’t complete focus 25, and joint the gym (I have been a couple of times, and will continue to do so…hopefully)
Trying to read the economist. It really isn’t sticking though, so I might just leave that behind. I need to stick to doing things that interest me, or I might end up 5 years down the line looking around and thinking bloody ell how did I get here.
Life really just keep on ticking, so I guess you just gotta do something you are interested in. And make money aswell, well get some kind of cash flow going. Tough decisions. Guess I’m ruling out those two applications.