New Keyboard

So I never really post on here anymore, I don’t really have much to say I guess even as an anonymous person, but I’ve got this new keyboard and I want to really type with it you know? Really get used to the keys and everything. I was thinking maybe I should try and write a book or a wattpad story but then again it’s a lot of effort.

Currently I’m watching the law cafe, love is for suckers – i guess thats it. I thought it would be a long list but its not. Feels like i’ve been watching a lot of TV. I finished little women on netflix it was a good show. Besides that the newest thing in my life atm is that I’m currently on a career break/secondment/whatever you call it. I’m studying again…well I’ve been studying for a long time on and off – but it was part time………..anyway not that exciting but it kind of is as I get to dedicate time to actually doing what I want to learn/do.

I think my last job was just a job and I think that’s okay. It’s okay to work a job because it’s a job and it pays your bills. Sure you might not be working on your passion but what is passion? I don’t know, all I know is that I signed up for one job and got something quite boring and I stayed there for a while because the people were nice. And….I haven’t really progressed………………..but it was all supposed to be temporary just work there then change fields once I completed my studies. I didn’t think I’d be there that long.

Anyway I’ve got a long way to go…lots of more hours of work I need to put in and I somehow need to improve my people skills because they’re getting rusty.

I never really thought about writing as a career but I guess it’s kind of my hobby, hahaha a hobby that came around because of a show called Awkward. I’m glad I started it anyway.

Anyway I’m currently trying to complete a udemy course and studying so I should probably get back to that.

not sure what to title this

So I’m back again after years and years. Well, around 1 year and a few months.

I feel really tired these days. Like I want to sleep all the time, maybe it’s old age hahaha.

I go to the gym now, I can say regularly since I at least go once a week.

What is there to write about?

So I work a job now, I don’t really like it that much if I’m being honest it’s really boring, but the people are really nice and after my last two job incidents (they didn’t go so well) I’m just grateful to be working with people that are nice. The pay is okay, but to be honest I was hoping at this point in my life I would be on a higher salary. That is life I guess.

I think I want to move along to tech so I’m trying to learn to code and complete a masters in computer science, my masters has been taking me ages to complete since I’ve become sick multiple times. Sick like mentally sick, can you believe? I never thought that would happen to me. Maybe I should write a blog post about it, it was so weird like the weirdest experience ever.

Anyway, I’m hoping to finish that soon. The masters I mean, well I’ve taken a break from my studies at the moment which has been good. So I’m trying to complete this coding course on Udemy it’s in python, so that’s what I’m spending my time on these days. I was also doing a reading course for Arabic but I’m so behind on that. I might try and do some today to catch up, I don’t know if I will ever catch up it…i’m very behind.

So thats me I guess, work, gym, coding and the occasional arabic. I hardly socialise these days I mean I do with my family but my friends have dwindled down over the years. It’s something I need to work on, I miss having close friends but at the same time it’s quiet peaceful these days, so I guess I kind of enjoy being alone. Although I need to make more of an effort to get out more, maybe go to a cafe or something, but then again with the whole COVID situation it’s probably not best to venture out….who knows?

I really need to read more, especially since my writing has gone to poop. AHHHH, how will I ever recover. I think it’s okay I shall survive, this blog will survive with my nonsense posts. I’ve been watching a lot of content by this guy called ali abdaal I don’t know if you’ve heard of him but yeah he’s kind of made me realise that I don’t really enjoy a lot of the things I’m doing but at the same time, is life magical for everyone? I’m not sure. Well, not really made me realise I kind of already knew but I don’t know I just don’t have the guts to leave. I’m also chasing this other job, tech/software dev, which I don’t know if I will like that either………gosh. The one thing I remember enjoying was my physics degree but that was also stressfull but I enjoyed it. So It’s a bit of a weird one, should I try and go back and try and make a living from physics ahh I don’t know. I’m lost in this life I guess trying to figure things out as I go along, at least I have some aims that I’m working towards so that is something.

Totally random but I’m also readying this book called atomic habits – it’s a book about how to build good habits so far it’s good, although I think I’ve forgotten most of what I’ve read. The book has summaries though so that helps refresh the memory. I feel like it’s taking me ages to read, and I haven’t been reading much at all – for a while now – so I hope I finish it.